[katethegreat]

This may make me an attention whore, but I'm getting stupidly stressed out about this and I guess I just need a bit of a vent (and someone to tell me everything will be all right!)

My gig on Thursday night:



Lovely, nice small venue, me doing bvs, not the focus of attention - how I like it.

My gig on Sunday:
http://www.thisistheatre.com/londontheatre/hermajestystheatre.html

I'm getting really nervous. Was gonna spend today rehearsing but along with the other crap I have in my life right now I'm actually so stressed I can't do anything. So now I'm angry with myself because this a big chance for me and I'm wasting it! If any of the agents I've invited turn up on Sunday night and I put on a crap performance then I've wasted a hell of a lot of time and energy. This may also be my only chance to sing on a west end stage, and I'm wasting it. Nevermind all the people I know who are coming to see it - they'll have wasted their money!
AAARRRGGHH!!!!
What's wrong with me? I should be excited, but I'm dreading it.

[MissMusic]

Okay, dont think about how big it is. Think about how you LOVE preforming, and how it will be fun. You know you'll be fine. Take some time and just focus on what you're preforming. Sit down and close your eyes. Turn on some music
(preferably from what you're preforming) and just relax. Concentrate on what you're going to do right. And just have fun with it, and everything will be fine. You're doing this because you love it right? Really get into your role and PREFORM!

hmm.. dont know if any of what i just said will help you, but it helps me. When i'm doing a dance or winterguard (yeah, the flags. I'm in it, i love it ) i always do a run through of the routine in myhead with the music and my eyes closed. It really helps me concentrate.

[Jordan]

Grr, if only you were on MSN right now.

Trouble is, my mobile is no good at my ex's and I can't give you my ex's home number, not really on, is it?

I'll PM you.

[happyguava]

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling that way. My thinking is that you would not be performing on a West End stage if you were going to be doing "a crap performance". From what I hear you are really talented, Kate. Don't think of it as being scary. You've earned it. Enjoy it. Milk it for all it's worth. Have a fantastic time!!! (and tell us how it goes!) *e-hug*

[katethegreat]

It's just a showcase - can you imagine me doing Phantom?!?LOL!

Thanks everyone, I'm working on chilling out a bit. A very lovely person bought me a massage today and I shocked the masseuse with how tense I am!

I'm currently putting on fake tan, de-fuzzing my legs, seeing what I can do with my stumpy little nails...I'm not good at the whole 'beatification' thing...takes me for ever and is usually wrecked in 10 mins...ugh.

I'll let you know how it goes - I think I'll go drink a bottle of rescue remedy...

[Da_Dark_Dude]

kate im na knock ur head in. ur gonna b amazin! Just live for that moment and let nothin stand in ur way. and when you walk on the stage, f*ck everything else goin on in ur life and go for it. ur gonna b a star, kate, i know it. u better give me money when ur scooped up

[katethegreat]

I did it! It's over...that's the crap part, all that stress for one night!

I enjoyed it, there's a million and one things I'm kicking myself about now that I'm a teacher that probably wouldn't have phased me before.
Don't know if any of the agents turned up, but my boss liked it so I think my job's safe lol!

Thanks for all the encouragement people left here - you don't know how much it helped.

I should be able to post some pics soon, there was a professional photographer there. And I'll be posting a few on the Phantom forum...

[happyguava]

Well done Kate, I'm so glad it went well!

[Aimee]

yey, I knew you'd be Ok. Well done.

[katethegreat]

There was a very shaky moment in the finale though...I'm not great walking forward in heels, let alone backwards...So walking backwards surrounded by little kids (one of the dance troupes) almost gave the audience a view of my knickers! I am eternally thankful to whoever for that not happening - as I'm sure the kids behind me are!
Seriously though, it feels like weeks ago now - not two days.